Wrapping up 2018 was definitely bittersweet, to say the least. It will forever be one of the most memorable years of my life with the birth of my second daughter and moving to a new home, but it has also been one of the hardest years. Change can be a tough pill to swallow and I am very proud of how far my family has come in 2018. The transition from one to two kids can be very tough. I thankfully have the help of my husband, but when he is working and providing for our family, I am outnumbered to my two crazy girls! Finding a balance has been the toughest part of my year, on top of trying to get used to a new home. Comfort was something that I felt I lost this year. I was extremely emotional moving from the first house my husband and I bought. The house we bought thinking we would ‘start’ a family in, not necessarily live there and grow a family for 5 years. We built a family there, we built community and relationships with our neighbors and friends, we built a life and a loving home. Leaving that behind left me feeling sad and empty when we moved. Now don’t get me wrong, I absolutely LOVE our new house, but leaving that home felt like we were leaving behind a big piece of our family and our life. Luckily I have come to learn that leaving a home is just that- you leave the home. All of your memories come with you, they don’t live in the house. The memories of us bringing our girls home from the hospital to that house is a memory I will forever have in my heart. I will drive past that house when my girls are older and be able to show them where they began their lives and how many memories were created there. After living in our new home now for just over four months, it is finally becoming home and not just a house. We have created memories here; celebrated holidays, fought illness, laughed, loved, cried, hugged, smiled, danced, sung, played games, entertained, praised, snuggled, and lived. I am incredibly grateful for the people I get to call my family and friends who have helped us share these memories and helped make this house a home.
Two big life changes in 2018 made for an emotional year with a lot of ups and downs. I have thought long and hard to come up with a word for 2019 in addition to a couple of resolutions (which I think may not even really be a thing anymore). I couldn’t settle on just one word as I have lots I can work on and strive for in 2019 which is why my word(s) of the year are going to be: BALANCE and CAREFREE.
For those of you that know me, you know that these are great words for me. Balance is always tough to achieve when you have families, friends, kids, a hubby, all the while trying to also squeeze in some ‘you’ time. I am going to find a balance that works best for me this year and brings an abundance of happiness. I am going to surround myself with the people and things that bring me the most joy.
Carefree is also going to be a challenging word. Unfortunately, I am a very high-strung person who internalizes a lot and stresses even more. I am going to take leaps and bounds towards being more carefree this year and enjoy and live in the moment. Be present 🙂
I am excited to embark on a new year and journey with all of you!